It Didn't Turn Out This Way

I prayed for healing It didn’t come At least Not the way I hoped

I said I trusted you with open hands But I didn’t know this road I watched the years Sweep through my fingers

Trying to stay brave The faith feels heavier at night When nothing gets explained I still believe

I’m just exhausted I pictured in this, it never came I planned a different life I thought obedience would mean

I’d understand the why I don’t regret still following you I just don’t notice pain And I don’t know how long

I’m supposed to stay this way I still believe I need your strength Then I ring your world and its sorrows

You knew this kind of knows You worked with friends You fell the banner You carried every cross

You don’t explain suffering You step inside of it And stay, it didn’t turn out this way And I don’t know what to say

Except I’m still here Still calling your name I won’t pretend I’m standing strong

But I haven’t walked away I’m still here I’m still yours, I’m always yours